10 years

It's been exactly 10 years since the first time I wrote in this blog. Sometimes I felt like abandoning it, but I've never had the heart to really leave it.

So many things had happened for the past ten years. I had fallen in love and losing it, trying to understand what love is all about, and let go what I thought was my future. I almost gave up on love and relationship, and sometimes I still feel the same, despite everything I've experienced. But I decided to try anyway, for the last time, and I'm grateful that I'm still working on it until this day. (Plus I got the big bonus, something that I've never thought that I would ever do in life).

My life always felt like a roller coaster, I circled the world trying to find out what I'm looking for. And to be honest, I still don't know what am I going to do for the rest of my life.

This past 10 years, I'm basically still the same girl, who loves Leonardo Dicaprio, a huge fan of Inzaghi and Azzurri, and sometimes I felt that time flies too fast.

But I promise myself that I will never give up to look for the meaning of my life. Whatever happens. Wherever I will be. I hope I still have the courage to write down all my thoughts, my passion, my love and my regrets. And thank you for being with me for the past 10 years, readers (whoever you are). I hope you will bear with me for the next coming years :)

Cheers!

Old One, New One

To make a change for my blog is such a big deal to me. The last time I made a template change was in 2003, a few months after I started this blog. So it's almost seven years ago! Imagine how many new blogs were emerging in that period of time. Of course with a better technology, cool templates, and various topics.

My reader friends had always associated my blog as a "simple, blue blog". I don't like the confusion of html and programming language. That's why I didn't really care about how my blog looked like. For me, what's inside it is the most important thing.

Until, haloscan, my comment provider, was closing its account, and all my comments were suddenly gone. I accepted the fact with a broken heart. For me, the comments represented my friends..people who always cared for me, for what I thought, even the unimportant ones. Sometimes, I met people for the first time through this blog, and became good friends with them, although we never even met in the "real" world. (hello, flo! Please keep on blogging...)

But still, life must go on, and I decided this is the right time to start a new page. Well, not a new blog for sure, only a little change that could brighten my days. The content is still the same. The writer, despite her current status as a mum and wife, is still the same girl as the one who started blogging seven years ago. Maybe some lessons throughout the years had harden her heart, and some experience had made her a bit more mature. But she's still the girl who fell in love with words, and she will always be. No matter what.

Thanks for keep reading my blog, guys! =)(whoever you are..)

Confession

Okay...I admit it...I kinda abandoned this blog lately =)
Sebenernya nggak maksud lho..Writing has always been my passion...But since I've been writing full time now in the magazine...kayanya semangat nulis blog jadi nggak sebesar dulu...

Mungkin emang bener ya...segala sesuatu yang terlalu itu nggak pernah baik...secinta apapun kita sama hal itu...Buat gue, hal itu termasuk nulis...Karna tiap hari kerjaannya udah nulis melulu, kadang sampe ngerasa ilfil buat sekedar ngetik sebaris-dua baris di blog ini...

Maaf ya blog-ku...=) Kamu tetap cinta sejatiku kok...yang lainnya...not more than works...

Nostalgia 80-an

Kemaren pas lagi blogwalking di sela-sela bikin report (halah...padahal banyakan browsingnya), gue menemukan sebuah blog lucu. Isinya tentang semua hal yang menyangkut tahun 80-an.Taglinenya aja udah bikin senyum senyum sendiri: Memble tapi Kece. Hehehe, berasa lagi baca buku-buku Lupus jaman dulu.

Dibilang generasi yang besar di tahun 80-an mungkin nggak sepenuhnya bener buat gue. Gue lahir di penghujung tahun 80, dan ingatan tentang dekade itu sebagian cuma samar-samar aja. Jadi waktu gue menelusuri blog itu, nggak semua fenomena tahun 80-an yang ada di sana familiar buat gue.

Tapi bahagia banget waktu baca postingan tentang jajanan tahun 80-an, dengan wafer superman dan cokelat ayam, permen chelsea dan cocorico, minuman vitacharm dan jus kotak GoGo, atau jajanan penuh bumbu penyedap seperti Anak Mas dan Krip-krip. Berasa semua rasa makanan itu ada lagi di lidah gue.

Juga waktu gue baca postingan tentang Buku Trio Detektif (favorit gue banget, bahkan masih ngelengkapin koleksinya sampe sekarang), Film-film Warkop DKI dan Catatan si Boy, Albumnya Vina Panduwinata dan bahkan bahasan tentang Coverboy & Covergirl majalah MODE! Hahaha...

Berasa balik lagi ke jaman dulu, jaman di mana seragam kebangsaan kakak cowok gue adalah wristband dan headband, dengan gaya-gaya breakdance amatirannya itu..Jaman di mana uang jajan gue selalu abis buat koleksi sapu tangan dan pritilan Hello Kitty dan Sanrio...Jaman di mana seratus rupiah itu bisa dapet Krip-krip 4 bungkus...Jaman di mana mobil VW Kodok bukanlah mobil gaul tapi emang mobil kebanyakan..

Jaman yang buat gue, berarti 1 kata: childhood...=)

Change!

waahh... lagi bosen banget sama yang dulu"...
jadi pingin sedikit ganti model...
meskipun simpel... tapi...yaaa..... lumayanlahhh...

gue suka banget warna biru....
soalnya biru punya banyak arti...
sedih, tenang, cool (dingin?), nyantai, adem, bikin seneng (kalo birunya langit!!!), bikin pengen berenang, bikin pengen.... apa lagi yah?

pokoknya.... gue suka biru, jadi gue pengen sedikit mendominasi dengan warna biru...
meskipun...nggak tertutup kemungkinan gue ganti" dengan warna laen lho....

New Born

It's Saturday again....
hari ini hari kelahiran blog gue!!!
masih garing sih, but...anyway, this is the beginning of something, i hope....